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| Friday, August 12th, 2005 | | 9:35 pm |
I do believe I've found THE ONE!!! We went to Strings& today and tried about ten violins. Now I have a very sweet-sounding, pretty-looking, REAL violin for the week. It's all but a done deal, though. It had me at hello. It's amazing how little you have to do for someone to let you walk out of a store with a violin you haven't paid for. Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: Main Titles--Charlie and the Chocolate Factory | | Friday, July 15th, 2005 | | 7:48 pm |
Well, I'm feeling lame. I had two opportunities to go to Willy Wonka tonight and now I'm not going at all. This is the first time in a while I've felt like crying. Maybe pirates will hold me over until the IMAX showing on Sunday. It's not that I really wanted to hang out with any of the people going (in fact, both events had the potential to be completely miserable), and it's not even that I wish I was out. I just wish I'd known sooner and been able to spend the afternoon differently. A nap would have been great. Now I've got a deli sandwich and two Netflix that don't seem very interesting at all. And I unknowingly walked into the middle of the Harry Potter crowd waiting for midnight at Barnes & Noble. And they didn't even have the book I was looking for. Bitch, bitch, bitch. :) Hopefully the symphony will work out better. Oh, and didn't I find the cutest boy on CL--looking for amelie, my semi-celebrity twin! Current Mood:  mellowCurrent Music: You Are the Girl--The Cars | | Saturday, June 25th, 2005 | | 2:53 am |
Took the rental back today. I hadn't played it or even tuned it since the new one got here, just to be sure I didn't rebond. It worked. I wasn't sorry to leave it behind, but I was sorry to lose that new string on it. I love that store. They were packing up cellos to send out. Someone was tuning in the back room. The sound made me miss lessons. The woman behind the counter said, "So that's enough of this?" It never even occurred to me that they'd think I was quitting. I said, "Nonono, I'm going to buy soon!" She was ecstatic but said nothing about buying there or the credit, so I guess that month did count...although I did get $135 of the deposit back. Found money. I think I'll go shopping tomorrow.... Current Mood:  content | | Tuesday, June 21st, 2005 | | 11:44 pm |
LUNCH
Nothing like having things feel pretty much back to normal at 2:00 and then creeping someone out by the end of the day. Lunch was really nice. The weather was beautiful. Things felt in place. Then, on the way out of work, I think I set things back to weird. I wonder if I can fix that tomorrow. My neighbor and I went to see the Met at the park tonight. She was such a kick. The weather was still beautiful. There were fireflies and a huge moon. It turns out I like opera. What a surprise. In the middle of it I suddenly thought, Wow, I really miss Miss R. Oranges Band show tomorrow. Wild wild life. Current Mood: hopefulCurrent Music: Daysleeper--REM | | Monday, June 20th, 2005 | | 10:00 pm |
Things are much better today. Spent most of the weekend cleaning, trying to ignore the terrible feeling that b and I might not be friends anymore. This morning I tried not to e-mail right away. Took care of some work, went to a meeting, and then finally decided to find out what was up with the bounce-back. We went back and forth for most of the afternoon, with one very long uncertain pause on his end, during which I threw a little fit and cleaned some more. (My apartment and office are going to be spotless by the time things get back to normal.) Our e-mails were very straightforward. We didn't talk about...the thing. But there weren't any games, either. Every message seemed to have a simple "let's be friends!" undertone. Very first grade. He stopped by my office before he left this evening (last week it was as if he was sneaking out every night). He made small talk. "How was your weekend" small talk, which was kind of funny, because we had already covered that in the e-mails. The ground got less attention than it has been getting lately. There were smiles. Finally he said, "So, lunch tomorrow?" I said, "Yeah!" He seemed happy. I felt happy. No idea how it'll go. Current Mood: hopefulCurrent Music: E-Bow the Letter--REM | | Saturday, June 18th, 2005 | | 2:38 pm |
I just realized that in the middle of the world becoming so weird, I completely forgot to write about the one thing that has kept my mind partially off the weird stuff. My very cheap just-to-get-by violin made it here. It was scheduled to arrive on Wednesday, but on that Monday morning when I wished I was anywhere but at work, it suddenly appeared in Brooklyn. After getting an e-mail alert that it had been left on the front stoop at 2:30, I asked my boss to let me leave. Between the sun and the traffic on our street, I was sure it would be gone or destroyed by the time I got home. It was still there an hour later. It's a very sweet instrument. Nothing fancy, just factory made in Romania. But it has a low, mellow sound that's more me than the bright (and, the way I play, sometimes piercing) sound of the rental. I'm still a little sad about taking the rental back. But the new one is actually mine (a very strange thought. I own a violin), and it will do fine for the time it takes to shop for the real thing. I loved it from the moment it got me away from work on that awkward day. Current Mood: pleasedCurrent Music: Here is the House--Depeche Mode | | Saturday, November 13th, 2004 | | 8:23 pm |
Okay, now I'm going to rave about my violin teacher again. Unfortunately my livejournal was still deserted when I was going through the misery part of my violin experience, so it's probably not obvious to everybody why this is such a brilliant development. But even I was only expecting to feel relieved, not completely ecstatic about the whole thing! Anyway, we had our lesson and it was so much fun again. We're just the same amount of flighty-spacey-hyper, so we manage to connect on some level that is a bit above earth. Somehow it works. I could happily play Twinkle Twinkle for hours at her house. And a good thing...because we're playing Twinkle Twinkle for hours and hours at her house. But she lets me play Twinkle Twinkle on all four strings! :) Good-bye to stressed-out humorless group students, intimidating Eastern European twenty-somethings who poke with their bows while yelling about relaxation, and frighteningly located pot-smoke-filled apartments of descendents of famous jazz musicans. Someone burned popcorn downstairs. Now, while I'm raving about people I've already raved about countless times, I have to give a nod to nan again for her endless collection of unrequited love songs. For someone without this problem, you are definitely the master! Also, thanks to JJR for help with the DaVinci's Notebook mystery. Time for a Missed Connection! Current Mood: jubilantCurrent Music: ghostbusterbeat2--Hoopsymamamania | | Thursday, November 11th, 2004 | | 8:27 pm |
Let's see. My brand-new cool-as-hell violin teacher came down with the flu and we've had to postpone our first "real" lesson. But of course I'm playing, even though I don't really know how to play anything, and we're so bonding now that the good violin teacher has given me permission to stop using the hurty shoulder rest. We sit around together and watch TV. It's excellent. I'll be sad to give it up when the rental term is over. Or when I move. Or when I get frustrated and throw it across the room. Whichever. Now, a note to JJR. I need your help in coming up with the date of a show. Remember the davinci's notebook show at the knitting factory about two summers ago? That's the one I need. And I know you want to help me out so that you won't be totally responsible for causing me to miss my density...oh, no, wait, that's what I DID manage to connect with that night...I mean MY DESTINY! If you can count on tmbg fans for one thing, it's being obsessive-compulsive about the details of live music shows. :) Have a beer, y'all. I'm going to start offering gumbo and po-boys here too. | | Sunday, November 7th, 2004 | | 1:32 pm |
Originally the plans for the day had to do with buying groceries and doing laundry and going into the city to find some work shoes and to try on a Gap skirt, even though it's one of those items that's a little too obviously Gap and could lead to running into people wearing the same thing. Now that I'm still in pajamas at 1:34, those have been adjusted. Grocery shopping, yes, but not extensively. Just grab some things, check out the firemen, and leave. Drugstore, essential, because I'm out of just about everything. (CVS has begun stocking my brand of pyons again, although only after they were rebranded as TEEN. I'm going to be forty years old and using TEEN pyons. That'll be great.) Then maybe some bathtub laundry, because I just can't face the laundromat. And some cleaning to make me feel as if I've done something. But there will be no leaving the neighborhood. Yesterday I went to a scavenger hunt in the museum of natural history with a bunch of people I didn't know. Something weird happened there. I was standing with a group of five people and was getting along fabulously with one girl who works as a nanny. This came up before we got around to asking everyone else's professions. When we finally did, I told them about my job. The girl was all excited and said, "What company?" I told her, and she held out her hand and said, "Hi. I'm [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<my [...] company's>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Originally the plans for the day had to do with buying groceries and doing laundry and going into the city to find some work shoes and to try on a Gap skirt, even though it's one of those items that's a little too obviously Gap and could lead to running into people wearing the same thing. Now that I'm still in pajamas at 1:34, those have been adjusted. Grocery shopping, yes, but not extensively. Just grab some things, check out the firemen, and leave. Drugstore, essential, because I'm out of just about everything. (CVS has begun stocking my brand of pyons again, although only after they were rebranded as TEEN. I'm going to be forty years old and using TEEN pyons. That'll be great.) Then maybe some bathtub laundry, because I just can't face the laundromat. And some cleaning to make me feel as if I've done something. But there will be no leaving the neighborhood.
Yesterday I went to a scavenger hunt in the museum of natural history with a bunch of people I didn't know. Something weird happened there. I was standing with a group of five people and was getting along fabulously with one girl who works as a nanny. This came up before we got around to asking everyone else's professions. When we finally did, I told them about my job. The girl was all excited and said, "What company?" I told her, and she held out her hand and said, "Hi. I'm <my company's CEO>'s nanny." I would not have been any more surprised if she had said she was Michael Eisner's nanny. It was like a hidden camera show moment. Fortunately, I hadn't said anything negative about anything. Not that there was anything negative to say. But from that point on, we were each a little bit careful about what we talked about. She got a big kick out of telling people we worked for the same person in very different ways.
I can't wait until Thanksgiving.  lazy | | Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004 | | 10:13 pm |
I just noticed that one of my interests is "metropoli," which other people apparently share with me. I wonder what it is. Today was like a morgue at work. Yes, I was sad and maybe even filled with dread at the news, but my coworkers were beyond consolation. In a really annoying way. Every time I wrote a response to their e-mails, I decided I wasn't upset enough to defend myself for not being upset enough, and I deleted it. In the end, I opened my big mouth long enough to say that I thought both of them had reason to be embarrassed about how close it was. And actually, I think it was a lot easier to get over the presidential results than the gay marriage thing. Although I also think this might be a good time to get out of NYC. That's enough about that. I've been so distracted, I forgot to be overjoyed about the fact that the campaign is over. Also in the news, the very short e-mail discussion and the crush have crashed into a brick wall. I'm not feeling very mournful. Probably because it's a fake crush to pass the time, and because I've convinced myself that he's a totally inappropriate choice anyway, which makes him perfect as a crush. However, it has really restricted the areas I can frequent at work. I get my tea REALLY fast these days, mumbling at the machine as the tiniest trickle of water runs through the teabag. ALSO, I had a lesson with the best violin teacher tonight, someone who didn't poke me with her bow and yell at me to relax. She's excellent, and even though I haven't met the other two yet, odds are very good for her. I just rediscovered the song Power of Goodbye on Madonna's Ray of Light record. When Felicity began, I was obsessed with this song. It's still amazing. I can't believe I forgot about it. Congratulations to Nan for adding Devo to her family! Current Mood:  hyperCurrent Music: To Have and Not to Hold--Madonna | | Monday, November 1st, 2004 | | 7:15 pm |
The David Driver cd I bought for about fifty cents on half.com while on a People Are Wrong high is awful. In all fairness, it's not really his record as much as this other woman, Gretchen Phillips, but man is it flat. Apparently his body *is* necessary. Back to the Happy Music compilation. Today I took a tiny step toward something I've been thinking about since February...which makes it not hasty or impulsive, right? Because that's what the cards said not to be! I waited until 4:45 to do it, which also makes it not impulsive, although I did push "send" hastily. With my eyes closed. Now I'm scared to go to work tomorrow. ------------------------- Daily Career for November 01, 2004 Provided by Astrology.com Weekly Career Keep all your communications electronic if you can help it--they'll be perfect for what you have to say, and they don't carry the same weight as paper or even face-to-face chats. Stay light and breezy. Current Mood: nervousCurrent Music: Oh Starsky--David Driver | | Sunday, October 31st, 2004 | | 1:06 am |
Insert spooky Poltergeist line that can't be said at 1 a.m.
I practically forgot how to post! And maybe it was better that way, because all I have to say is that the time just fell back and happy Halloween! All of the scary movies I want to watch are on right now, but the most I can handle at this hour is Misery. The real exorcist story is on A&E--over and over. I should be in bed resting up for the kids, but last night was so sleepless that I'm worried about a repeat. Then again, there's very little chance I'll be running into certain people tomorrow; maybe the fact that nothing happened today will put me straight to sleep. *sigh* Taurus Troubles with friends and possibly with a romantic partner over the past day or two could have you feeling unloved, insecure, and emotionally blocked. However, all signs are that these feelings aren't all that accurate, dear Taurus. Your friends haven't changed their attitudes towards you; there is still a lot of love and affection being directed your way. Whatever problems you may have been having are simply a bump in the road. Relax and let it go. Nan, thanks again for the song. Did you ever know that you're my hero? "There's something about my life. It's just automatically true that nothing actually happens." --Brian, My So-Called Life Current Mood:  melancholy--but no tearCurrent Music: Stand By Me on TNT | | Sunday, February 15th, 2004 | | 5:12 pm |
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The reason I don't go to bars is that I always wish I was at home watching a movie or reading a book instead. | | Saturday, February 14th, 2004 | | 11:54 am |
| | Wednesday, November 19th, 2003 | | 2:22 am |
Back and bored. i guess by either time zone, i should be in bed by now, but i'm too busy feeling disoriented. i <3 the haunted mansion. Current Mood:  listless | | Monday, November 3rd, 2003 | | 8:42 pm |
Is it just me, or does your body become a lot more demanding when you've got a cold? Everything's an urgent situation. You're not just hungry, you're starving and can never get full. You don't just have to pee, you have to go RIGHT NOW. The air outside is too cold. The shower water is too hot. But it's incredibly easy to get high on this tylenol cold medicine. It just completely knocks out your depth perception! I feel so TALL! Current Mood:  sickCurrent Music: Seventh Heaven | | Wednesday, October 29th, 2003 | | 6:53 pm |
Well, i bought a cow costume today for half price at the Hallmark across the street from work. Once I convinced myself that the costume looked ugly because it was on a hideous guy in the picture, i kind of liked it. Also, the head has this really cute cow face on it, instead of these two big blue blobs for eyes that it has in the picture. It doesn't really matter, since I'll be bandaging up the head anyway, but it still went a long way in making me feel some attachment to the outfit. What I REALLY wanted to be was one of the magic mushroom-looking hypnotized cows with the spiraling eyes in Home on the Range! (My disney fan friends will know what I mean next year.) The costume also has an obscene-looking udder. One teat in particular stands up very straight, in the worst possible place. I thought about covering it with an apron, but a coworker told me that i'd only look more obscene if i did that. Then there's the matter of un-enhancing my actual breasts. (Never thought THAT would be necessary!) They just seem sort of redundant with the udder. This is probably not a costume for the satanic orgy work party tomorrow. Even though it's a literary reference...sort of. Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: some random shaggy-like song on mtv | | Sunday, October 26th, 2003 | | 3:26 pm |
I finally installed a second hard drive. An external one, so it's not quite as impressive as it sounds, but I've been hanging on to it for a long time without installing because the box said it required 98SE or higher. Regular 98 is on my computer, and not really a version I'd expect to hold up for long, but it's been very stable and the last thing I want to do is change systems on this old computer and watch everything crumble. So I connected the hard drive anyway, and it's doing fine. In the next few days if you find me crying about everything being gone, you will know why. Yesterday morning I was a volunteer for Boo at the Zoo in Central Park. It was SO much fun. All of those kids! Another girl and I started out as greeters, shouting out to people as they came in, telling them where everything was, and forcing them to take an endangered species puzzle to fill out on their way. Most people (at least the ones who didn't walk way out of their way to avoid us) were really enthusiastic about all of it. Some didn't realize the event was happening that day. Kids were psyched either about the headband making or the face painting (OH!!!! FACE PAINTING!!!). Some weren't psyched about either. One was crying because he didn't want to have to wear a hat (we were wearing the headbands). One asked if you HAD to have your face painted. One stared at me and said "no" after each activity I told him about, while his dad was enthused about every one. Later we were sent to craft prep, where we curled pipe cleaners around pencils for the headbands, and after that we were sent to headband making. That was the most fun; the kids were so happy with them. They were all very serious about picking out their spooky creatures to put on them, and they all put them on right away. One little girl about two wanted four animals on hers (all bugs and bats), and her mother said, "She is *obsessed* with halloween." I felt an immediate bond. Even most of the parents were great, a lot of them coming back to get their own headbands. It's too bad this is only a once-a-year event. Afterward I went to the tmbg kids' show at the symphony space. What a pretty place for a show! It was only an hour long, but it seemed longer. Completely overrun with kids, and they were CRAZY. Lots of booster seats, lots of helium voices. TMBG put on the worst puppet show in the world, which is a shame, because the puppets were nice quality. They weren't actually the puppeteers; they just stood and watched. The only voice I recognized was Robin's, but there was another woman, and a guy with a really deep voice, unless that was prerecorded. I hope they don't do it again. And Bed, Bed, Bed is a tiny, tiny book. I was surprised; I was expecting it to be regular picture-book size. Instead, it's more like a Little Golden Book. It probably wouldn't have been any trouble to carry around afterward, but i put it off for another however many weeks it is before i get around to ordering it on Amazon. Maybe I'll steal the nickle strategy from nan. EVERYDAY IS HALLOWEEN!!! I WIN!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: Audio--Blue Man Group | | Friday, October 24th, 2003 | | 8:41 pm |
Okay, I'm done faking journal dates now, and I can't remember if I even had anything left to say. Just finished my first week in an OFFICE at work. It's lovely, although smaller than the cubicle, and freezing cold. But there's so much more room for toys and posters that seem a little weird to display at home. I'm feeling happy and excited in a kidlike way, but for no particular reason. I've been paying attention to the things that make me happy. Halloween is always a good time of year. Salem is on my mind. I think I'm almost ready to rewrite and send my letter. Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: Cowboy--Erasure |
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